In January of 2007, I was diagnosed with cancer, and had to endure two major operations (Whipple procedures), both within a weeks time. (the cancer is gone now) I was in the ICU 5 weeks. (dancing with the Reaper). I was in a Catholic hospital. When they asked my religion at “pre-admission”, I said Gnostic. Funny thing … while in the ICU many nuns, priests, and ministers came calling saying “I see you’re agnostic!” … I explained the diff between agnostics and Gnostics, and never saw them again!
But … the experience forced me to come to terms with my own mortality. I accepted the possibilities, and was not afraid.
While I was in there … I had three distinct “out of body experiences”. I don’t think it was a “near death” since I wasn’t told of flat lining or anything (though sometimes I wonder if they would tell me such a thing).
I would meet this other being, androgynous, I couldn’t tell if it was male or female. I remember saying that I wanted to go with him/her, but was turned away, but I would be insistent to the point where it seemed that I was annoying him/her. I was told “you have so much to do”… “you’ve had all this time, and you haven’t done anything”.
One thing though … my visitations with the androgynous being … my memory of the event, would always begin at the end. When we were saying our goodbyes. It’s as though I was given instructions or “let in” on a secret.
The memory would always begin like we were wrapping up a conversation, and I was told it’s time to return … maybe that is why he/she was so annoyed about me pestering him/her to just let me stay. (I did feel an overwhelming sense of love while in it’s presence).”it felt natural to be there”.
(Maybe whatever knowledge was imparted to me (if any) during those visitations, will be revealed to me in snippets of gnosis as the need arises).
Then I can remember thinking “I have to wake up”. it took a great deal of thought to become conscious again, and my brain felt like my arms would feel after doing a bunch of curls with a dumbell.
When returning to my body … it wasn’t like I was hovering over the room or anything … it was all black … with a bright spot in the distance … and as I got closer, I could see that the spot was actually my body … then when I got so close, it felt as if I was on a slide, sliding into my body … then pop! awake!… (with brain burn .. lol)
Point is … I’m not afraid of dying, not anymore, I know there is something beyond.
Since that experience … I feel the calling.
May the best of your yesterdays, be the worst of your tomorrows!… Daniel.
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Hehehe, have you ever tried an entheogen lik for example the Amanita Muscaria? Well this must have been one of the best kept secrets of the ancient gnostics. Those mushrooms that are so poisonous, are only that, because it are hallucinogens. Oh yeah, and hallucinogens are so mistaken. The most people don’t know anything about it, they only know how dangerous mushrooms CAN be. One can easily create a save set & setting(mind set and environment). Do never use it alone, but always with someone who is able to wake over you body, while your in a deep trance or even other dimensions. Time doesn’t exist anymore and you feel a great love and connection with the divine. Depending on what you want to experience, you can chose what sort of entheogen you can use. Mushrooms give unbelievable devine experience that can’t been told in words. it are very deep trances, where by the ego completly let go, and your in full contact with a complete different sort of conscious. In the case with psilocybin mushrooms, you experience in a blindfolded session and sort of meditating. You will be able to notice more with your third eye, then what you could ever see or notice with your eyes. Often deep esoteric visions popup, imagine seeing egyptian symbolism, are maya symbology, well at the same time have intense realisations that are painful, but do heal you in many ways. The days or weeks and in some cases even month’s or years, people do look to life with a more expanded consciousnes. It wil changes your lives in many ways. Meet poimondres there at the other side. The word entheogen is a greak word that means “creates god within,” en- “in, within,” theo- “god, divine,” -gen “creates, generates”.
I know there are many techniques, but here in the western, entheogens where till 60 years ago, almost only know to a very small group of people. Don’t forget, that every religion started in secret, because they had to fear prosecution. Through the ages, there have been magicians in secret society’s at work.Who trough natural techniques and entheogen experiences tried to enter different forms of dimentions and altered perception. A feeling of oneness that can’t be explained like those with meditation. It’s like a out of body experience, but entheogens make the experience of gnosis possible for every soul. Guess why it is forbidden in every country in the world, except for holland. Take for instant the maya’s, they must have brewed ayahuasca, because ayahuasca can be made with several plants that grow in the amazon and that containt DMT (Di-Methyl-Tryptamine), together with for example syrean rue, that activates the DMT. Dmt is is a molecule that exists in many life forms, so it does exist only in us humans. Our brain already constructs DMT, it probably the pineaplle part of our brain creates it. When we get born our brain produces extra DMT and when you die, this also happens and result in the experiences where so many people speak about who claim to have seen tunnels and god figures and familly. The ayahuasca brew allows us to learn and prepare ourself for the big day, that we go to a complete new reality. Many people do experience trouble with dying, because they have to let go there ego, what very painfull. Then the spirit leaves with the help of the dmt molecule the body.
Just some thoughts, question where knowledge has been stored trough out the ages. Because the ancient did know that a time would come that leads to who we are today. Sleeping sheeps and those who are awake but don’t dare to even ask one single question of the devine. And then there are those who understand that somewhere there in the dark night of soul, our true innerself can be found. Let go your self, and you will spiritually feel heeled and emotionel problems blocaddes seem to ahve dissapeard. Ayahuasca is even a medicin that has been used for ages by several tribes around the world, who do have sjamans who entered for ages these other dimentions, to help en heal others. Only those severall people around the world did before 1950’s, knew about the existince of these medicines that exactly describes the gnostic experience.
The Amanita Muscaria is a different that ayahuasca. It’s been feared by many people, because of the overwhelming experiences it can give. But what many do not know, that a large dose of dried amanita muscaria’s where dried in tree’s, and guess what the pagans/gnostics did, they dried them in christmas tree’s. The amanita is the fruit that has been geven to adam and eve, and it shall give them what no eyes have seen and no ears have heard It awakes the kundaline and shoots you into heaven and you can see the world trough the eyes of god, and meant world and entities.
It’s a secret that has been kept away from ears for far to long, don’t just think it is just a buch of bullshit. Think, read, research and maybe taking the change on life transforming experience that will for ones and for all, in the right set & setting, give you that where you have searched for your a live long. Meating god the devine in your own temple, and you will know where i am talking about.
Hermes Trismegistus